Hello everyone, I haven't posted in so long and for that I am sorry.
I have been quite depressed lately but my boyfriend has been helping me through it. I am moving in with him and his family tomorrow as its heaps closer to uni for me.
I went out for dinner tonight with my parents and now I feel sick. Ew.
I am fatter then ever, yes I am officially up to my highest weight ever.
Has anyone seen Pirates of the Carribian 4? I saw it today its really good, the mermaids are amazing thinspo, they are just so beautiful.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
Hate on me hater
Lalalalala
It is 2:07am and sleep evades me, I tried to go to sleep at 11pm but couldn't. My tummy hurts, I am hungry. But I don't need food hehehehehehehe
I am getting to the overtired stage but I can't sleep, I don't want to sleep. The nightmares, they're to much.
They have come back again. They are usualy slightly different but always the same theme. Its always people being really grusomley murdered in front of me, they are usually raped first too.
The other day it was a bunch of children being killed. They are truely horrible.
The therapist thinks its my brain replaying what has happened to me in the past like sort of reliving it but in different ways. When I was little my sister died in front of me, I'd say it was pretty damn gruesome too but I suppose I have blocked it out as I can't remember it. But its still in my head so I dream about it.
Once I dreamed I was running down the street where the house I grew up in is and I get to the end of the street and theres this brown sack and inside is my sisters body. I hate that one.
It is 2:07am and sleep evades me, I tried to go to sleep at 11pm but couldn't. My tummy hurts, I am hungry. But I don't need food hehehehehehehe
I am getting to the overtired stage but I can't sleep, I don't want to sleep. The nightmares, they're to much.
They have come back again. They are usualy slightly different but always the same theme. Its always people being really grusomley murdered in front of me, they are usually raped first too.
The other day it was a bunch of children being killed. They are truely horrible.
The therapist thinks its my brain replaying what has happened to me in the past like sort of reliving it but in different ways. When I was little my sister died in front of me, I'd say it was pretty damn gruesome too but I suppose I have blocked it out as I can't remember it. But its still in my head so I dream about it.
Once I dreamed I was running down the street where the house I grew up in is and I get to the end of the street and theres this brown sack and inside is my sisters body. I hate that one.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
fast, followers and love songs
I lost a follower
Thats ok because I haven't been posting very interesting stuff
I was litening to love song dedications and I started crying... wtf! crying to love songs fml
Yesterday I started a fruit and veg fast, day one went well but today we had visitors for lunch so I had a chicken salad wrap and some tim tams. Oh well I will start again tomorrow, yay...Anyway I have to lose heaps of weight as I have confided in a few more friends about my ed then immediatly regretted it as now they are going to be like wtf shes not thin. So now I must lose lose lose.
I want a nice stomach, nice legs, a nice ass, well nice everything. Nice and thin.
Thats ok because I haven't been posting very interesting stuff
I was litening to love song dedications and I started crying... wtf! crying to love songs fml
Yesterday I started a fruit and veg fast, day one went well but today we had visitors for lunch so I had a chicken salad wrap and some tim tams. Oh well I will start again tomorrow, yay...Anyway I have to lose heaps of weight as I have confided in a few more friends about my ed then immediatly regretted it as now they are going to be like wtf shes not thin. So now I must lose lose lose.
I want a nice stomach, nice legs, a nice ass, well nice everything. Nice and thin.
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