Moved out

Hello my pretties. I have moved out of home! Yep, moved my fat ass out. Its.. how can I put it... difficult. I don't have much money and I feel a little lonely. I'm just renting a room at the moment so I'm living with other people. I can't afford the internet right now so I won't be posting much. I will try to get to an internet kiosk as often as I can though.
I haven't been eating much since I left home so I'm happy about that. I have pretty much been eating celery, carrots, rice crackers and drinking pepsi max. I don't have scales at my new place so I won't know if I have lost anything, but when I visit home I will weigh.
miss hearing from you all
xxx

Forget you

This is the first day of my life
I Swear I was born right in the doorway
I went out in the rain
Suddenly everything changed
They're spreadin' blankets on the beach

Yours is the first face that I saw
I Think I was blind before I met you
I don't know where I am
I don't know where I've been
But I know where I want to go

So I thought I'd let you know
That these things take forever
I especially am slow
But I realized that I need you
And I wondered if I could come home

I remember the time you drove all night
Just to meet me in the morning
And I thought it was strange
You said everything changed
You felt as if you just woke up

And you said,
This is the first day of my life,
I'm Glad I didn't die before I met you
But now I don't care I could go anywhere with you
And I'd probably be happy.

So if you wanna be with me
With these things there's no telling
We'll just have to wait and see
But I'd rather be working for a paycheck
Than waiting to win the lottery

Besides maybe this time it's different
I mean I really think you like me...

Take a bite of my heart

What are you waiting for?

Hey all my pretties =)
I have been very busy, not with fun things, but with life. I finished my traineeship (yay!) and I start a new job on the 6th of December. I found a place to live in Sydney so thats good. Its a room in a house with two other people (a mother and son), its pretty good. My room has a double bed, a wardrobe, a chest of draws and a TV with foxtel. The place has a pool and a back room thing with a BBQ etc, and I have my own massive fridge (which I plan to fill with celery and coke zero). I have been eating anything and everything and I need to stop, tomorrow will be better, tomorrow I'll be better.
I have a new man in my life, his name is Jonno and he is perfect. He is so so sweet and nice and kind and funny. He is 23 and works in retail. We are doing something that neither of us have ever done before: we are waiting to have sex. It makes me like him so so much, he is willing to wait for me, even though its so hard for him, he wants it so much. I want it too, as you all know I'm a very sexual being haha. But it makes it so exciting, I know when it happens it will be so special. I can't wait, but I will haha.
Mum is on holiday with her partner so I have been staying with my friend so I don't have to be alone with my step-dad. Anyway yesterday she sent me this message "Im not feeling really well atm. I run out of my tablets and im not good so im going to the doctor tomorrow. Sorry i just need to sort my shit out. Can we catch up on friday? Ill help you move next week if im feeling better. Sorry I just cant explain how i feel right now but i need to be alone". So I was stranded in Sydney with nowhere to go. I swear shes the worst friend ever, we have been friends for years and years and she knows I don't have somewhere to go. Anyway I haven't spoken to her since.
OMG Genie in a Bottle just came on the radio! hahaha thats so funnyyyyy.
Talk soon beauties
xxx

hmm

Hello everyone, I am still alive! Sorry for my shitty posting, I'll be better!! I hope I haven't missed anything to important.
Nothing has really been happening in my life, just work and stuff.
I have my dietician tomorrow, how exciting....
I can't believe I have so little to tell you.
I suck.
love youuuu

FuckFuckFuck

Fucking hell guys!! I don't know what to do. I have been shovelling food down my throat for weeks now! Remember that little patch I went through when I was doing so well? Well thats long gone. I just can't seem to get in the state of mind. As soon as I start thinking about dieting I think about how much easier it is to just eat, then I go and feed my fat ass some more. How can anyone find me attractive? I have no idea. I need help. What can I do? HELP ME!

How did I get new followers? Who would want to follow this fucking sad blog? Welcome anyway, to my fucked up world. Thanks for joining me on this journey. Feel free to ask questions or comment =]

Anyway back to my sad fucked life, I met this really nice guy, Kevin. He is 26 and he has 2 kids (getting in over my head). Anyway we went to movies and dinner then sfter went back to his and watched another movie, then had fucking amazing sex, I came like 500 times. We must have had sex about 20 times through the night/morning. Anyway now he is really into me! I don't know if I have told you this before but I like someone, have sex with them, then get sick of them. I just lose interest once I have sex with them. I know its usually the guy who is like this haha, but thats me. So I don't know what to do about that.

If anyone has any advice about the food thing I would really really appreciate it.

Love you all

SexSexSex

Ok I will tell you in order of first to last and the situation =]

Ben- My first, one night stand
Max- One night stand
George- One night stand
Kyall- Boyfriend
Connor- Boyfriend
Elissa- Just for fun
Dean- Friend
David- Friend
Jordan- Friend
Tim- Friend
Jason- Sort of seeing

So yeah, 11 people