Keep working on the problem

I came upon a doctor that appeard in quite poor health, I said theres nothing I can do for you you can't do for yourself, he said oh yes you can just hold my hand, I think that that would help so I sat with him a while and then I asked him how he felt he said I think I'm cured, in fact I'm sure, thank you stranger for your theraputic smile

Today was the first time in a while that I cried, I mean really cried. I'm talking like body shaking sobs. I need help but I don't know where to get it anymore now that I moved. My heart aches, is this what life is like? Is there love? Happiness? Anything? How do I get these things? Why do some people get to feel them and I don't? Maybe I don't deserve it, I haven't exactly lived a good honest life, I have lied, cheated, hurt people who are close to me. Is anything worth fighting for?

Thats how I learnt the lesson, that everyones alone, and your eyes must do some rainin if your ever gonna grow

I binged today. Yep, I shovelled food into my stupid fat mouth, what a fucking loser. What a fail of a day. I went swimming but not enough, I left to early. I wish I could see Jonno today but I think I like him so much more then he likes me. Like he doesn't want to see me after work, but I would be willing to see him whenever I could. I would travel for hours to spend the night with him. I want him to feel the same but I understand why he doesn't, how could someone love someone like me?

Baby don't worry, coz now I've got your back, and everytime you feel like crying I will try and make you laugh, and if I can't if it just hurts to bad then we'll wait for it to pass, and I will keep you company for those days so long and black