The things I hate

about having an eating disorder

I thought I would write this list to help me see that recovery will be good for me, so here goes

- Having an ed has made me so lonely

- I can't go out with friends because I'm scared there will be food involved

- Hating myself for everything

- Pains in my stomach, head, everywhere

- Bruising so easily

- Lying to everyone

- Being obsessed with food

- Constantly thinking about what I've eaten, what I'm going to eat, what I shouldn't eat etc

- Having no energy to live

Fuck, I don't know what to do with myself